esteban diacono

I haven't seen a digital piece this beautiful. I've been thinking about my beliefs lately and I remember hearing an argument between an atheist and a "believer" and the atheist said when he was thirteen years old he decided he didn't believe in a god or The God and hasn't turned his back on that decision. (He was a professor of theology, consequently) The "believer" said "oh, that's interesting, you would trust the opinion of a thirteen year old to base your entire life and career."

Most of the big decisions people make in this life or rather views of life are made before the age of 12, or around that time. Some larger "decision time" moments come later in life but the actual choice, the left or right, comes from before. I joined a religion when I was 18 but the fact that I looked into it to begin with was because when I was 12 years old I made a new year's resolution to be an "open minded" person.

So if it is fair to ask the atheist if he can trust the opinion of a thirteen year old, I think the same question is viable to the quote "believer".

So do I trust my own youthful opinions? I can say this, knowing that in the 7th grade had you asked me what my favorite band was, I would have said Limp Bizkit. So what? So, I feel content with a majority of the big decisions I've made in my life but I do think it would be responsible to reevaluate and start with a clean slate on what it is that you believe. And see if you come to the same conclusions.

Recently I decided to clear out my favorite things list. I have no favorite actor, no favorite color or food or song or band. I got out the little pin or paper clip and hit the tiny concave reset button. And it is very hard to decide on new favorites. Its almost even more critical at this age. When I was a kid, I liked the disney channel, I liked roller blading, easy my favorite actor was Brink! (2:12-4:30 is particularly moving) But I am a man now and I need to rethink that decision.

So why say all this after watching that video? My thoughts are that beauty, subjective as it may be has to come from somewhere. And if one claims or is tought that beauty comes from God, what then is God? Where is God? How does God work? Are we the Gods? Even if in embryo? I believe its healthy to question the decisions you make even if you come to the same conclusion that you came up with before. Because by making the decision again you will have recommitted yourself to the life that you want to live in.